What stresses you out?

Most of the time it's the littlest things, like not being able to do all the things I want to do at the same time, or what order to do things in. When my brain fills up with tasks. Also when I can't do what I want to do.

What are you doing tonight?

So far I've got home from work, ate soup and some chilli flatbread things, then me and Rakesh went to Aldi (basically to just kill time and buy some dinner ingredients) there's something about wandering around supermarkets with him, it's fun. Then I've sat and browsed through Bloglovin' and came across this and i've painted my nails a nice copper colour. We will probably get high and watch a movie and most probably tuck into some mint dark chocolate.

What's easy?

Boring routines are easy and sleeping that's really easy. Maybe the easiest thing for me is my job and it annoys me that i'm so comfortable.

What's for dinner?

Rakesh is the cook tonight and fish tacos and spicy wedges are on the menu (one of my faves!)

What do you want to do more?

Write (I can't write but i'd like to write more for this blog), photograph (I know I photograph alot already but not enough, I miss capturing beautiful portraits and the light falling on objects), explore always always explore.

What makes you cry?

Disagreements with Rakesh, sad films, when I feel sad with myself for not knowing what I want to be, listening to songs and thinking about things. I'm a pussy.

What was the last thing that made you angry?

I think it may have been a customer at work, working in retail really does test you. Oh and selling my camera and then breaking it the morning afterwards so had to give the buyer a refund!

What's silly?

Most of the questions I ask, the worries I face.

What's good?

So much, I think about what isn't good too much and forget about all the things that are good (more than good). Love is good, family is good. They're basically it but what else needs to be good?

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Bring It On

I've been quite good this week, three runs so far and of course feeling better for it already! As I accidentally took a break from it I thought i'd start back slow so I've done two 3km and one 4km. 

2015 seemed to be my rest year, I ran but not hard enough. I ran two 10km, one being We Run. Towards the end of the year I started putting weight on and not loosing it and that's when I realised I'm almost un-doing all my hard work. 2013-2014 were my best years for exercise where I watched myself drop from 15 stone to my lowest 11 stone 6 lbs. I was so motivated and inspired to finally be the size of my dreams. Obviously then came along my foodie boyfriend and moving into his house and trying to resist ice cream and popcorn most nights is very hard especially when you have the 'munchies'. This year is the year, I'm using the idea of a 20 day backpacker holiday as motivation and the big bag of mint m&ms as a well done treat! I really am hoping to lose two stone by summer. 

My meals are changing, i'm going to quit bread again (as that what made me lose the weight in the beginning), reduce my wheat intake and obviously no sweet treats except for some dark chocolate here and there. I do wish I could use programmes like The Body Coach or Kayla Itsines but it sucks not having enough money! I'd like to try out some boxing classes and swimming though.

2016 let me be happy in my own skin because I have no idea what that feels like. Expect some cheap good meal recipes too, I'm not the greatest cook but I like to try! and if anyone has any for me to try feel free to comment below.